When I was a child, I was more in my spirit. The spirit would tell me, I can write, I can paint, I can draw, I can sing, I can dance, I can walk, I can run, I can fly. I remember telling myself there is so much I want to do if only I have time. God, there is so much to do besides going to school. I wanted to do a little bit of everything, and to my surprise, I would grab every opportunity to learn something new. Life was simple yet so beautiful. There was joy in every simple act. My mind was conditioned to be in a learning state as I was a kid. The joy came from each learning experience as my spirit was evolving, but with it came the free gift of ego.
Let me rephrase: ego was jealous of this joy and started to build its way by clinging on. As clever as the ego is, it wanted to tell me that ‘I’ am the one who is special. Spirit said I could fly, I could fly, and I could fly, but ego gradually shifted the attention from the lightness of flying to the heaviness of ‘I’. The shift was so subtle and smooth that the spirit got buried very deep.
The Spirit of God is great, and so is our spirit being His children. The spirit has a subtle expansion, and ego tries to knock it down constantly. This subtle expansion thereby goes unnoticed by our huge ego mind, leaving no space for anything. But the spirit is coming from God and is divine in nature. Its gentleness would not push the ego. So how will the ego mind come to the realization of the reality of spirit within? God is simple; ego has a free will too and unknowingly chooses self-destruction. Ego is not smart enough to know that we are all the same in spirit and hence serve as mirrors to each other. Each time the ego mind looks at another human mirror, it is looking at the ego. The ego starts to knock and punch itself without realizing it. The ego gets caught in its own web and ends up fighting with itself every time we are fighting with each other as humans. Meanwhile, the spirit, with its ageless wisdom, is very content. Ego keeps hitting ego and makes our human life hell. It takes us into this maze, and we think there is no way back. The ego wastes all the energy in fighting with itself while the spirit continues to show us various mirrors to remind us of our reality.
Spirits of beings with awareness reflect presence. Their presence shows us the mirror of our soul. We are so used to looking at the ego in the mirror that we are taken aback by what we see. We want to run away from these aware beings because they do not show us the face of the ego we are used to looking at. The presence of ego is so strong within us that anything else in the mirror looks alien to us. We do not want to enter this unknown space. We are so comfortable where we are; this is what we want to believe. This is still ego trying its last few tricks. It knows there is not enough fuel for it to continue without recharging. Recharging means taking a break, which is scary because the spirit might take its place. Ego is so scared at this point. The fear that it creates is now a mirror to its own self. We see this fear of the ego mind, and it deceives us again. We begin to fear ourselves, but we are actually looking at the ego. We do not remember our divine spirit and identify with the fear, which is nothing but the ego mind. Ego does not want us to look at our spirit in the mirror that has been ever-present there. But the spirit, with its divine qualities, is full of compassion. It has come to take us home and knows we are not ready to go yet. Ego at this time does not know that it has built its own grave. Each time we look in the human mirror, we are looking at this ego, but we don’t know that. We think we are very scared and this is the end of us. Yes, this is definitely the end—but the end of ego games. We continue to exist as spirits because spirit never dies. We die to our ego selves and are reborn into our spirit selves, but this time with the awareness of our eternal nature.
The divine matrix is just perfect. It plays an important role in our rebirth. It came to me as Mother Nature. Nature has a gift of silence. This sacred silence is so present in Mother Nature and acts as a mirror to the deep peace that resides in our souls. This silence is the gift of God that awakens the spirit in us. This peace is the gift of God that guides us to liberation. This nature is the gift of God that purifies us. This presence is the gift of God that connects us to the web of oneness. This love is the gift of God that brings us home. Thank you, Mother Nature, for bringing us back home. Thank you, God, for all the eternal gifts you lay in our beautiful journey…
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